Processing…

Life is crazy! As if that isn’t known or stated already. There have been so many changes in life recently. Here is my attempt to process through it all-

I unfortunately had to withdraw from classes for the semester due to mental health. I got a new job that has been so fun and I am so excited about. I started as an art teacher assistant at a nonprofit center. It is all about inspiring creativity and reaching out to the community. The people there are awesome. I am trying to find another job/ source of income because my job is freelance and has more consistent work during the school year.

I also started an internship at my church, which has been amazing to serve so far and continue to grow and develop in who I am and who I am created to be. I still volunteer at the children’s hospital one day a week. I am trying to keep my schedule balanced so I have time to see my friends, spend time with my family, and have enough time for myself. I am trying to create better habits. I am trying organize my room, keep it that way, and make it a space I enjoy being in. A few of my friends are getting married and I am in their weddings so that is another exciting/ involved process. I am trying to be creative more daily (this tends to fall through the cracks).

Things I still need to do: Find a therapist. Clean my car. Go to the eye doctor and get new glasses. Catch up on all the embroidery projects I wanted to make for friends. Decide what I am doing for school. Make good sleep habits. Spend less time on screens.

Hopefully this will help me order it all around in my mind.

Sassy + Happy

I took a day trip to L.A. with a few of my friends last week. We all wanted a girls day so we made the drive and spent the day doing fun things a couple of the gals had wanted to check out! We spent some time in the Glossier store, and I did not expect to like it as much as I did (I thought it was overhyped). We did up our make up trying all of their products and then took some time walking around before dinner. We all took photos with different walls to represent each of us- so of course mine needed to be the succulent wall (insert heart eyes).

Something that I enjoy now that I did not used to is putting outfits together. I want to keep a record of the clothes that I actually wear because I need to get rid of (donate) what I do not use. I think Marie Kondo’s methods may work out for me since we both put an emphasis on joy. So I can then get rid of the items that are not adding anything positive to my life. I also desire to be more sustainable in my future choices, and stop supporting brands that are a part of fast fashion and contribute to unfair labor practices. etc.

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So I guess this place can also serve to track evidence of my process.

If I had thought about posting these perhaps I would have changed up the pictures a bit more lol Oh well!
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Always in Chucks.

If anyone out there has any tips for making more sustainable choices and/ or some good organizing secrets let me know!

Goodbye 2018, and thank you.

Written on Dec. 30, 2018:

This year has gone by insanely fast. This was the first year in three years that I was not in a long-term relationship. I entered 2018 on my own (with lots of love and support). I learned independence, although it hadn’t really gone anywhere and really I just needed to be reminded of it. I am amazed that I have so much love surrounding me.

It was a hard year in terms of learning lessons, dealing with my mental health, and continually learning how to let go of things that are not healthy and do not bring joy.

But here we are, two days away from a new year again. I’m entering this year even with just a better vantage point than the last. Not being literally days out from a really emotional breakup I feel as if I have a little leg up on myself from this time last year. 😉

I am excited for what the next year brings. I am also tired and apathetic at times, because that is what depression can do. Either way, in this moment im choosing to focus on the joy.

I’m not going to do “New Year’s Resolutions” because those never really work out. I am continually trying to better myself, however. I want to try new forms of exercise to be healthy. Eat more consistently. Practice my hobbies way more often. Be gracious towards myself and others. I have a desire to be like Jesus (not who people who have twisted him into to fit their own agenda but what he practiced) a.k.a. LOVE. Serve more. Think of myself less. When I do think of myself, do so kindly. Take care of me. Be strong and quick-witted. Practice RAK (random acts of kindness) as often as possible. Compliment others. Find passions. Be in love, be loved, be love. Be healthy: mind, body, and spirit.


So goodbye to one year of growth. I am hoping to usher in another year of growth, but hoping that this one will be motivated by happiness and love. Wishing you all JOY in 2019!

Gift-giving guide.

One of my favorite things in the world is giving gifts! I absolutely love sharing joy with my family and friends, whether it’s a small gift just because or something a little bigger for an occasion. I also think I’m pretty good at it. However, I think that anyone can have a talent for it with the right thoughtful mindset!

To me, all gifts are meaningful. I appreciate someone taking the time out of their day even if to only think about me. That’s why I love cards, anything handmade, photos, whatever it may be! When I am thinking of giving to others though, I think gifts can mean more than we think. Some people may be materialistic and that’s why they enjoy receiving gifts, but I think for a lot of people it’s something different. A couple reasons that a meaningful gift can be more than just a material item are:

1. It shows the other person that you are thinking of them.

2. It reveals that you know things about the person and what they like/love.

When I am thinking of what to get someone I love, I try to think if they have mentioned anything around me that they need or would love to have. This comment could have been from six months ago, but that person will be appreciative and probably surprised that you remembered. It does not have to be something extravagant, but it will make the person feel as if they are actually listened to.

If that doesn’t strike up any ideas, I like to think of what I know about the other person. Do they like funny gifts, sentimental gifts, or maybe even both? From there I will pick a path to go down. I have bought silly socks with puns on them for friends that love puns. I made a basket for a friend that spent the summer here in California with items that I thought would remind her of her time here. For a friend that loves sunshine and needed to make her room feel more like home, I picked out different succulents and plants and had them arranged in a beautiful pot with a macrame wall hanging to go with it.

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A magical farewell.

The reason I think this is so important is because people love and deserve to feel known. I want to spend my life making sure my family and friends know that I see them, and I appreciate who they are and the things they appreciate. It’s really not about the money, or the items themselves. It might be silly to think you can say such important things with favorite candies, a funny shirt, and some stickers- but I’ll keep trying.

Gratitude.

I am so grateful for my family. I am grateful to have beautiful, wonderful friends that I love. I am grateful to always be learning and growing.

Gratitude is so incredibly powerful. This is obviously not an original idea; there are many authors, psychologists, and humans looking into the benefits of practicing gratitude daily. The people in my life that I look up to the most live a life of gratitude. In my opinion it is something we are born with the capacity for, but is something we need to put into practice to grow. The more gratitude is practiced, the easier it becomes a reflex to turn to not only when it is easy (but when it is necessary).

A lot of my thoughts can be anxious, and I know that I need to actively change them to make the difference that I would like to see. Also, when you are grateful, I don’t think you can take anything for granted. This has become extremely important to me through certain life experiences lately. Taking a step back out of my own head to examine my thoughts is something that can be difficult; it takes a lot of self-awareness. I know that this is something that is worth it though.

I’m hoping writing this will keep me accountable not to be perfect, but to be in practice.